Trip was good, though I admit my anger is still simmering at J. And I had a lot of time in the car alone to simmer. No real epiphany, except the usual stuff (you're using your anger at her to take your focus off your own life, that sort of thing). But this was new: She managed to drag me down to her level. It took quite an effort on her part; she was mean for nearly a year before she found the mark, but she did it. She managed to piss me off so much that I no longer root for her to succeed in life.
FTR, I don't like to root against people (except the Yankees, that's different) ... it smacks of loserdom, in my book. But some people are so meretricious that you can't help but wish them ill. As a Christian, this results in a ill-wish/repent/pray-for-the-person cycle. I have a major resentment and I wouldn't mind some prayers from some folks out there that this resentment go away and that I could forgive J. completely. I don't need this baggage. Maybe some spiritual help will put this to rest.
BTW, I have a date this weekend. My attention should be forward. Any suggestions for what to do?