[Industrialblog,
May 11, 2004]
Request
I could use some prayers right now. Specifically, that my faith in God may be strengthened right now and that I accept a painful loss. It turns out I was in denial about something, but didn't realize that until just last weekend. So this week things are a bit squirrelly as I jump between anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. As we all know by now, those stages aren't quite a straight line: I for one jump all over the place, sometimes in the same hour. Heh.
Don't worry. I'll be OK. Already I've learned an important lesson -- faith sometimes needs to be put in mental italics, then bolded, and underlined ... that is, sometimes faith needs to be an action verb, in the same sense as "To Punch" is an action verb. Faith is believing exactly when you don't believe ... it means pushing through exactly when you want to give up ... it means moving forward even as everything appears totally hopeless. That's what's getting me through right now.
A few prayers could help. Thanks. Pax Christi.
Don't worry. I'll be OK. Already I've learned an important lesson -- faith sometimes needs to be put in mental italics, then bolded, and underlined ... that is, sometimes faith needs to be an action verb, in the same sense as "To Punch" is an action verb. Faith is believing exactly when you don't believe ... it means pushing through exactly when you want to give up ... it means moving forward even as everything appears totally hopeless. That's what's getting me through right now.
A few prayers could help. Thanks. Pax Christi.
I'll add you to my prayers for a while. Hang in there and give it time.
My parents minister had written a book that was for people with questions about their faith. One of the stories related is about a friend who asked about whether he should participate in certain parts of the service even though he didn't see the point of them. The answer given was that he should keep participating because he would see the point eventually, which he did. I remember that story because part of faith is practice, at least I think.
Take care.
Faith is hope in things that are unseen. The Lord has a great future planned for you, plans to prosper you spiritually as you draw closer to Him. Keep Him in the center of your life and the world spins away.
Grace and peace. fx